Stressed and Overwhelmed!

I have to say that I didn't want this to be a place where I whine and complain and only have negative things to say but writing is how I release stress and my feelings. And I have to tell you that I have been trying to focus on positive instead of negative things but I just have to vent tonight.
Why is it that when things go wrong it seems like everything goes wrong? I mean really I can handle one thing at a time but everything at once it's just overwhelming to me. I really just want to bawl right now. I don't know how spouses of Military people handle doing everything on their own. I seriously admire them. I am having a hard time with Dale gone and so are the kids.
I feel bad calling him and complaining because what is he supposed to be able to do, I mean really? And I just tell him that he is doing what he can. He is working and supporting our family. It's just hard to be one person taking care of four kids and everything at home by yourself. I only have two arms well technically one arm because Makayla never lets me put her down. It gets hard to never get a break or a second to yourself. By the time I get Makayla down it's time for me to go to bed but I have been staying up late because I really just need a second to myself. I just feel wore out and exhausted. I am tired of doing everything by myself. I really was spoiled before my hubby left he helped me out so much. I didn't realize just how much until he left. Sadly isn't this how it always goes? I miss him but the kids are missing him even more than I am if that's even possible.  I think I am just really tired and when I am tired things look one hundred times worse to me then they really are. But yesterday and this evening have just been crappy. I am grateful that I have two amazing, awesome friends who are there for me. If they weren't I really don't know what I would do. Nights like this though I really wish that I lived closer to my family. Well, I am going to bed. Thanks for listening.