Isn't life grand?

Nothing too exciting has been going on lately. So here's just a few things that have been going through my mind.


Is it just me or does every child not listen to his or her parent? Or is it just my children? Because none of them have been minding or listening to me it's like I am just talking to myself. It's beyond frustrating.

I went grocery shopping today and Kadence was running away from me and not listening and Makayla was throwing things out of the cart. Then I had to pick Ayden up from preschool, unload groceries and get the kids lunch. While I was trying to put groceries away I dropped a jar of baby food and it broke spilling glass and baby food all across my kitchen floor. So on top of everything else I had to then clean that up... that's been my day.

Ayden and Kadence have been fighting non stop all week. They have been kicking, hitting and fighting over toys. I can't catch a break.

Dale was going to get to come home the end of February but now they are saying the end of March. Seriously! I don't know how much longer I can keep this up, I am exhausted and tired of being a single parent to three kids and a baby. I feel like it's never going to end. I thinks honestly it's because I never get a break, it's wearing me down. I don't feel like I am doing my best at anything right now, I have nothing left to give. I'm not being the best wife or mother that I can be. I try to do it all but there's only one of me. I feel like I am losing my sanity.

This week I haven't done anything really, I haven't cleaned, haven't been cooking, haven't done laundry and much more. My excuse... because I don't feel like it. I have just been reading or watching t.v. just trying to escape my reality for a couple hours. Maybe it's partly the weather who knows.

And come to find out I don't have Post Partum  depression I have just good old Depression... (was wondering why it was just dragging on) It's never going away. I get to deal with it everyday for the rest of my life. Whatever at least I know what's wrong with me. I am thankful that other than that we are all happy healthy and strong.

I wish I lived closer to family.


Anyways.... isn't life grand?

family fun

Messy Makayla

Dale and Makayla

Having fun with daddy

My mom:)

My dad:)

My dad fell asleep and Kadence and I were doing his hair haha

He slept through the whole thing

My gorgeous mamma

My little sis Lindz

Beth and her bear (she's had that since she was a little baby)

the love of my life

Ayden man

Kadence having a bad day

Grandpa Barry

My hopes for 2012

I want to eat better, fresh, raw and clean foods. I want to exercise more and lose weight. I want to get healthy!
I want to write more poetry like I use to.
I want to work on becoming a better wife and mother
I want to work on my friendships and relationships and allow myself to get closer to people
I want to learn and expand my knowledge
I want to grow spiritually
I would like to sale our house and find one that meets our needs and wants. One that is closer to Dale's job.

These are just some of the things that I hope to accomplish this year.


Exciting things that are going to happen this year.
-Makayla turns 1!
- Bethany will be 8 and get baptized!
-Ayden will go to Kindergarten
-Kadence will go to preschool
-I will only have one child at home for a few hours!!!! (Don't know what that will even be like, it's exciting)
-Dale will be finished with the project in Mississippi!

I think it's going to be a great year and I can't wait to find out what else the new year will bring!

2011

2011 was a crazy year for us, we had many ups and downs. I hope 2012 will be a great year for us as a family!

Greatest thing that happened- Makayla was born! (I wasn't pregnant anymore!!!!)
Exciting event- Dale finally graduated and got a job! And along with that put our house up for sale.
Challenging- Dale traveling and being away from home. Being a single mom to three kids and a baby (surprised I am not crazy yet)
Joyful- My sister Amber got married!
Worst event of 2011- POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION... Hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and am still struggling with.

Finally got this! To help me stay organized

And I had to get this. I love it!

Christmas 2011

Chad, Heather and Chance. Wearing masks lol

We had our video camera going so sadly I forgot to take more pictures. Oh well... Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!!!!