Isn't life grand?

Nothing too exciting has been going on lately. So here's just a few things that have been going through my mind.


Is it just me or does every child not listen to his or her parent? Or is it just my children? Because none of them have been minding or listening to me it's like I am just talking to myself. It's beyond frustrating.

I went grocery shopping today and Kadence was running away from me and not listening and Makayla was throwing things out of the cart. Then I had to pick Ayden up from preschool, unload groceries and get the kids lunch. While I was trying to put groceries away I dropped a jar of baby food and it broke spilling glass and baby food all across my kitchen floor. So on top of everything else I had to then clean that up... that's been my day.

Ayden and Kadence have been fighting non stop all week. They have been kicking, hitting and fighting over toys. I can't catch a break.

Dale was going to get to come home the end of February but now they are saying the end of March. Seriously! I don't know how much longer I can keep this up, I am exhausted and tired of being a single parent to three kids and a baby. I feel like it's never going to end. I thinks honestly it's because I never get a break, it's wearing me down. I don't feel like I am doing my best at anything right now, I have nothing left to give. I'm not being the best wife or mother that I can be. I try to do it all but there's only one of me. I feel like I am losing my sanity.

This week I haven't done anything really, I haven't cleaned, haven't been cooking, haven't done laundry and much more. My excuse... because I don't feel like it. I have just been reading or watching t.v. just trying to escape my reality for a couple hours. Maybe it's partly the weather who knows.

And come to find out I don't have Post Partum  depression I have just good old Depression... (was wondering why it was just dragging on) It's never going away. I get to deal with it everyday for the rest of my life. Whatever at least I know what's wrong with me. I am thankful that other than that we are all happy healthy and strong.

I wish I lived closer to family.


Anyways.... isn't life grand?