when life gives you lemons....

You have all heard the saying once or twice about  how when life gives you lemons to make lemonade.... Well I just have to say that I am not so fond of lemonade anymore, actually I am starting to really dislike it! So tuesday Dale's boss pulled him in and told him that him and three other guys are getting laid off. Yeah.... sigh. We are exactly back to where we were 3 years ago. Not a good feeling at all. I am angry, frustrated, stressed and scared.

I know that the Lord has a plan for us and that we will be just fine. It's just scary to have no income, bills and the responsibility of four kids. It has honestly been the longest and hardest 3 years of my life. I am just so over it all. We struggled for two years with Dale unemployed, just going to school to get his bachelors degree, to him getting a job and being in Mississippi for a year with the four kids and I in Utah and after all that to him getting laid off. In the exact same situation we were in.... I am so angry right now!

I have been so stressed all week, it's making me sick. I have had a stomach ache and feeling depressed. I just need to get it out, suck it up and carry on. I know we will be just fine, that the Lord is watching out and over us. I know that Dale will get another job I just hope that it's soon. I just need to have patience and faith. The two things that I struggle with the most. Is it so wrong to wish for and want things to go easy and be simple for once? Not always, just this once.

I read this on pinterest "Having faith in God is having faith in his timing." Very fitting.

So I am going to stick to what I said last time I wrote, things are going to start looking up. I just need to have patience and faith in his timing. Patience, faith and timing....